So little to spend :)

Fake Fake Fake... fake smiles fake care fake friend... I hate.

Nature has no Mercy...

Believe me.... world does not move taking you into consideration, you have to move on with the world. Expectations from someone causes the greatest destruction of mental peace, I don't want to become weak. I had learned my lessons from life but the problem is, it keeps on teaching and never stops... why someone be born so mean that no one wants to adore him as a friend.

Nature has no Mercy...

Believe me.... world does not move taking you into consideration, you have to move on with the world.

Alll I need is to be freeeeeeeeee

Let me soar high, let me shade the thoughts that characterizes a normal average person, let me break the shackles of vicious loop that captures the mind and brain, let me focus on the ultimate dreams, I am alive for.

Jealousy mars happiness

Moon is away and stars tooo. Miles to go before I sleep, Miles to go.

At Vienna Airport now...

The cargo F*** me like anything... Mannnnn could you imagine paying 600 Euros... a little more than 40000Rs for 20 kg extra luggage... I did it.. What to do??

I paid 600 Euros for 20 kg (30 euro / kg) to carry back home all the souvenirs, clothes and most important the chocolates... Big thanks to credit card tat I carry... I would not have been able to achieve this feat w/o a credit card. Once decided to choose between wht to take back and what not?? coz the clothes that im taking back were not costly as much im paying for there weight !!!!

But noooooooo..... i dint want to throw anything...so decided to pay the full putting a big stone over money mind. :(((

Money comes and goes... i will earn more n more to compensate this foolish loss. If I had paid a little attention towards cargo and my total baggage i could have saved at least 50% of the total.

CountDown Day 00 - Hildesheim ... Und das leben beggint :-)))

The deputation over today... I will be leaving from Hildesheim at 4:30 am

Picchale saat dino me ...

Amazon Shopping spree....

->Transcend 850 MP3 Video player
->Super Talent PICO C 8 GB pen drive ..worlds smallest usb drive
->Western Digital 320 GB My Passport HardDisk
->Canon SX 110 IS, 9MP, 10X optical Zoom digicam. {I lost my old one from ICE Flyer on Mt. Titlis..Swiss}
->Sudoku n kakuro Handheld touchscreen game
->More than 200CHF... souvenirs from swiss(victorinox, bells) .. my fav muahhhh coffee cup
->Jack Wolfskin mountaineering shoe... its a best buy..

CountDown Day 07 - Hildesheim ... Aane wale saat dino me ;-)

Between Heaven And Earth ... Switzerland

The Swiss Dream :)

Swiss Tour... from 2nd Oct to 6th Oct. Heavenly beautiful Swiss... words or pic cant do justice to the beautiful Swiss. If possible one must visit this place to see the nature at its best and engineering marvels(mountain trains, tunnels, steps, cable cars...) that made all the glaciers and waterfalls accessible for tourism.

The best time to visit Swiss will be autumn season and sunny days. We stayed at Funny Farm Hotel (Mattenhof Resort) in Interlaken. This is a great place to stay in best city in swiss...Interlaken

Our Travel itinerary was as follows.

(Day1): Rhine Falls, Schilthorn(Piz Gloria)
(Day2): Jungfraujoch, Trummelbach falls, Interlaken city
(Day3): Journey from interlaken to Luzern, Mt Titlis

Picsss:
http://picasaweb.google.com/manish.mmk/BetweenHeavenAndEarth?authkey=fWt2k5Wn3Rs#

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CountDown Day 16 - Hildesheim

The month of October arrived. Today I will leave for Swiss Holiday. This weekend is called a special holiday because we have got a government holiday on Friday thats 3rd October, The German Unification Day.
In India Robert Bosch Bangalore office is closed from 1st to 5th... what a gr8 vacation to celebrate the Navaratri Festival...

CountDown Day 23 - Hildesheim

Day started when I was awake.. Yep 0000Hrs. I could not sleep. I don't know whats happening to me, but im engrossed in thoughts, could not even relax for a second.

went to office by 9:08 bus. come back 5:35 bus
one label released.. one less bug . :)

Is shaher mein har shaks pareshaan sa kyun hai ...

Next 18th i will be in Bangalore

18th Oct 2008... Life's Completely changed in this one year.
something accomplished. I have forgotten her completely, and now I wont let anyone play around with me, my feelings emotions and my love. It's not that damn easy to forget. I wont let it happen second time... instead I will die.

Google Strike or Dictatorship of Google . Google Sucks... for doing this .

I was expecting something like this since the inception of Chrome..the new Google browser. The day or moment really came today.

What if Google provides its services to only Google Chrome users ??? and not in other browser. thinkkkkkkk...

Each computer user is hooked to Google by some or the other way. Orkut, Blogger, Gmail, Google Code, Google Translator, Picasa and what not... One cannot pass time without using one of these application/services. Today i really faced this problem as usual came from office, and opened firefox and logged in into gmail.... wht no response "Waiting...for gmail" from sooo long... I got pissed off... thought time to reinstall firefox..but TOI and wiki were opening ..felt strange. then obviously tried IE... same problem.. Not even Google Search was working in firefox and IE. Then got the clue..what it could be ...

I had already installed chrome since the day it was made available.. thought I will give it a try to prove my point and TO MY HORROR < IM WRITING THIS BLOG AT THIS TIME USING GOOGLE CHROME BROWSER >. This is only second time I am using Chrome. Its not a coincidence or problem with my setup... This is a well planned Google trial. It's been more than 20 mins since im watching this now... all Google services working instantly fine in Chrome... but "waiting" in firefox and IE. Isn't this approach reminds you of Dictatorship... Yes the more we belong on Google services the more we will face Dictatorship of Google.

Chrome is at present available for windows and is open source... but I guess Google will be soon launching an all OS compatible Chrome. I can even write one browser on my own, but what if Google has a tech-know-how to know the browser type before authenticating any service requests from Google servers.. the catch lies there.

Going one step further, if tomorrow Google launches a new OS, and they stop supporting open source and charge for everything ! and imagine if Google OS is mandatory if one wants to use all Google services... Are to biting your nails or shivering at this idea !!! Anything can happen... After all they have tamed the web, internet and a vast huge set of net users worldwide. That's why I am a strong supporter of Open Source and Free Software Foundation. No harm in growing together.

Though it may be some problem with my machine, or just so that Murphy is on my side today... or may be just because my head is aching.. BUT still.. Just Imagine... if one day... What if Google decides something evil like this... and continues it's strike in all available popular browsers. then it's a great big Challenge before Microsoft and the open source community... anyway I have learned how to use Chrome and also it's free to download ;-)

At the core of all this free services, Google has it's hidden commercial interests. Have you ever thought how the advertisements in your Inbox are relevant to your mood/travel plan/shopping decisions etc. It's all scanning through your mails/conversations/likes/interests/gossips and providing suitable ads, generating revenues for Google.

Ever wondered, how the junk mails that use to come from bot like addresses are now bearing your best friends names or the ones from whom you read every mail , message or frequently keep in touch. You cant resist ti immediately click open the mail and read the contents only to know its an advertisement. Google is doing at it's best in getting every bit of information about you to make them salable to the ads/marketing world. AND who is at the receiving end. You & Me.

Guys and girls think many times whether you really need to depend so much on this online world. It's a sheer compromise of personal privacy and we can't fathom upto what extent it can be exploited.

Be Damn Careful !

Ciao.

what's happiness.. i guess i know :-)

What makes me feel good nowadays is im still breathing. No craziness but the art of living evolves as one grows older. whether u get what you want or loose, for sure you learn a lesson worth carrying forward. One damn crazy idea is to live freely. Neutralize the needs, neutralize the expectations ...be a child and look around. When you see at grown ups as a child, you see a life. Every single different person, carries a life with him... a story different from anyone else's.

Sometimes the faces are happy, sometimes longing, sometimes searching, and some are like me... perfectly neutral at that moment and observing the "a small part" of the most amazing drama's moving around. Is it so easy to call it a Drama... Well no but don't take it seriously, when you look back in your own life you will find many moments you couldn't stop laughing over your behavior.

Some people free themselves with a little intake of Alcohol.. :-) I will appreciate them. Its good to be bound by some rules... but it's best to loose yourself for sometime and become neutral. Intoxication works best too loose the worldly sorrows for some moments and go close to ones subconscious mind. its a paradox but its very much true... One looses the consciousness but awakes in a different world where he is in his own boots and still completely naked !!! Sounds crazy but its true. ;-)

It's not intoxication always, but sometimes it's a feeling of happiness that makes you feel exactly the same. It's a feeling when you know that someone loves you and care for you. You get equally unconscious in your world with this feel good feeling.

Wall - E Full 5 stars to this movie *****

What humans are made up of.... watch this movie.. machines will teach you.

Im torned between Me and Myself.

Everyone except one or two has seen Myself...
The real Me is know to me and only to those very few 2 or 3 who had spent time with Me.

Me:
is soft, emotional, sensitive

Myself:
is strong, practical, brainy.

Now the Me is getting often revealed before Myself. Myself is on the verge of breaking down into pieces. This is not a change to welcome but to fight against the invading Me on Myself.

The real big challege before Me is to somehow survive Myself...

Rimzhim gire sawan...

main aur meri tanhai aksar yeh batein karte hai.. yu hota toh kaisa hota...

Open Prison ... sometimes Hildesheim is like that.

No government has arrested me, I am not a criminal.
Then why am I feeling like I am being punished for something.

Whats the reason? When I went out of my house after one and half day long... neither the mild breeze was exhilarating nor the sunny weather, and evermore the fresh air also couldn't satisfy my breath. I wanted to scream loudly, I can't go back to my friend who suffered a loss. Whats Life??? I cant answer. It makes you weep, it makes you scream... it makes me realize sometimes that I am hopeless... It reminds me that I am in open prison. YES when life punishes someone he is send to a open prison.
No walls, no guards, no locks, no handcuffs... but the legs don't want to go out, the tongue becomes tasteless, the eyes no longer want to see the sunlight and the hands... they are spread wide open asking for something which may not come back again once gone.

hopes time courage ... thats what is required to break this open prison.

Once upon a time ...

There was a boy...

He was strong as rock,
He knew how to stand alone against whole system,
He was courageous and in love with solitude,
He was in complete harmony with life knowing the ultimate truth.

The boy is changed now,

He is sentimental,
He is emotional,
He cries often,
He needs support,
He fears loneliness,
Though he still knows the ultimate truth but now he is restless to live before he...

He is completely changed.

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61st Indian Independence Day ... in Hildesheim

Independence Day

An encounter with Life at Hildesheim

The life goes on and on, what it leaves behind is the trail of unforgettable memories. The true sense of living is beyond explanation but the essence can be surely preserved in authentic words.

This encounter with life may bring tears to those who left Hildesheim when they had got there best friends here, in a way they had seen a whole new world with new eyes.

I was ever interested to come to this place but never thought that it will be so tough to really pack n go. The day when I got the call to go, cried in office toilet thinking I am going to loose the whole year from my life. A place far away…. no friends, leaving my parents alone here. Then friends boosted the morale saying go and see the world it's a rewarding experience. Also the first time excitement was backing my decision to leave India and land in a foreign country.

The Plane landed on foreign land in a cold climate, the days n nights were different here than India. First day to office.. remarkable …I thought I will sleep and spend day at home.. but the foreign silence was killing, immediately got up and went to office. and when I was returning back, saw a girl in saree at bus stop... totally amazed… was thinking Boschlers kept Indian ness alive here in Germany !!!
Who she might be? Later I came to know that it was her birthday that day. She became my good friend. We were sailing in same boat...A year long deputation.
any guesses who is she? Deeps.. One of my best friend.

When the bus stopped I got down somewhere and gosh … I forgot my house, first day, 11 pm. Where to go?. Trial and error and finally found the home.

I was wondering what these people are made up of, they are disciplined, they progressed so ahead of world despite of this strange adverse climate.

Hmmm there were many changes waiting to accommodate me.
The crook that never bothered what goes inside kitchen, who never bothered to prepare anything for him, learned what is happiness when he prepared food in his kitchen for his friends. That's life. The happiness is in living and sharing and not allowing yourself to escape into loneliness and shy away from sharing the moments which one can cherish for whole life.

I have spent one best year of my life here. The feeling of loosing a year has long back left behind and …the learning from life what I gained in this year is simply more than a year. Here I stand Separate, Alone, Strong, Self sustaining.

(... to be continued)

Before I end up being a part of crowd,

In the end it says "Thoda hai thode ki jaroorat hai" Zindagi phir bhi yaha Khoobsurat hai"

Life is nothing but something I dunno…

Life is nothing but interpretation

Life is nothing but enjoyment

Life is nothing but meeting people

Life is nothing but pain

Life is nothing but fulfilling desires

Life is nothing but surviving the odds

Life is nothing but caring for everyone

Life is nothing but getting attached

Life is nothing but being unattached

Life is nothing but missing someone

Life is nothing but forgiving the mistakes

Life is nothing but forgetting the mistakes

Life is nothing but moving forward

Life is nothing but loving someone

Life is nothing but departing from someone

Life is nothing but unexpected happenings

Life is nothing but Expression of Joy

Life is nothing but preserving the childhood innocence.

{more to be added here gradually}

Life is nothing but .....
Life is nothing but Life
{ Each Line is a lesson L.I.F.E. has taught me, I will keep on learning -- mmk }

Show me the meaning….

Tell me what’s the worst disease in this world

Cancer

AIDS



neh.............................................................love



A cancer patient knows when is he going to die, he has those many days left to enjoy life.

But a lovelorn person, he doesn’t know when he is going to die. And his plight is he can’t live anymore.



A patient can come out of illness and enjoy ...but coming out is not possible when someone is caught in love.

What’s in life for such a loser? Infinite wait until he meets his end and a long suffering if it takes long.

Paradise lost ...

Pathar dil insaan Pathar dil shamshan ...
Pathar ke jab hote dil ... kyu jeeta marta insaan.

Whats the fate if we are fighting against each other
everytime whenever the nation is struck with bomb blasts
I left paralysed and my mind numb.

Amresh Sawant who died in mumabai serial blasts was one such victim a friend of my friend. What on earth makes us go insane... money, politics, power... is it more valuable than life???

the modesty and the goodness

A new ruthless DAWN

recipe to remember for L T ...

someone may ask wat did i had for Dinner...

Well I had prepared something very special tonight. the ingredients are so rare that you may not even get it for whole of your lifetime. you will keep searching keep waiting but you will rarely get the mix of all required ingredients for this recipe.

i turned on the burner of longingness and the heat of wait just came out...then i chopped my loneliness into fine pieces until when i realized its hurting my heart... the pan of solitary evening was hot by the time.. i put the chopped loneliness in it and added four full teaspoon of tears. and mixed it well. loneliness was boiling and i was steering it adding some more amount of salty tears. it became soft then came the moment of adding spices to it.

I was having all different spices for this recipe; the sweet,bitter,tangy memories of Near and far friends... this mix of this special spices is a very rare and important
ingredient, if you have it then only you can prepare such a recipe. i started adding the spices remembering the good times we shared, and also the tears we dropped before each other. The recipe was becoming tasty, the smell of chopped loneliness was now vanishing and it got a sweet scent. It takes really long to prepare this dish... for hours together i was steering the loneliness and adding more spice... but it was becoming difficult as loneliness started swelling. it become bigger and bigger in size. and then suddenly i fall down,.... needless to say without having anything.

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today is really a goofed up day... i forgot to take lunch box to office, had to come back and then also dint had proper food. bugs kept coming into software and new tasks simply piling up... by the evening i was really chocked up and feeling dizzy... came home alone as usual after shopping for some grocery items. I was really feeling very very bad and also vomiting sensation. slept for sometime in fact simply lying down on bed and then the thoughts came into mind.... now it happens rarely that i being left alone, thanks to my friends here in Hildesheim... but sometimes when i am alone then the thought process takes such unusual turns, and I cant lie to myself.. i must express what i felt. well it's life and we have to accept it !
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its 11:20 now...
After giving a way to glim feeling i felt like if i don't eat and lie on bed coughing like this, then i will be like this becoming more and more sensitive and will never rise up... I dunno how many nights i have spent like this after coming to this place. But today nooo enough for the day. I got ready and went to bus stop at 9:50 o'clock.. no wonder if the bus is only after 30 minutes.. came back and took the bicycle... went to India Haus and had Nice Dinner. No worries ..Cheeers.

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It's a sin to be Senstive

hmmmm... that's my biased opinion when I am left alone shadowed in my own thoughts. I am partly responsible for that because I chose to live alone. It's a new discovery... when one is left alone he becomes sensitive.
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suspectible to everything... and most to tears.

Ronaa chahe ro na paaye... dil kitna majboor hai

My dear friends I am badly missing you alll....

One day comes to everyones life, when they realize that life is all about sharing and caring with loved ones and with friends. Nothing else matters. Because life stands on these supports.

Gaadi bula rahi hai

Be it hotel california.... or Gaadi bula rahi hai...
The Same meaning... the sheer quality of expressing the Truth.



Enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Evey Moment Of It !!!



Gaadi Bulaa Rahi Hai, Seeti Bajaa Rahi Hai
Chalna Hi Zindagi Hai, Chalti Hi Ja Rahi Hai

Dekho Vo Rail, Bachchon Ka Khel, Seekho Sabak Jawaanon
Sar Pe Hai Bojh, Seene Mein Aag, Lab Par Dhuaan Hai Jaano
Phir Bhi Ye Ja Rahi Hai, Nagmein Suna Rahi Hai

Aage Toofan, Peechhe Barsaat, Oopar Gagan Mein Bijli
Soche Na Baat, Din Ho Ke Raat, Signal Hua Ke Nikli
Dekho Vo Aa Rahi Hai, Dekho Vo Ja Rahi Hai

Aate Hain Log, Jaate Hain Log, Paani Mein Jaise Rele
Jaane Ke Baad, Aate Hain Yaad, Guzre Hue Vo Mele
Yaadein Bana Rahi Hai, Yaaden Mita Rahi Hai

Gaadi Ko Dekh, Kaisi Hai Nek, Achchha Bura Na Dekhe
Sab Hain Savaar, Dushman Ke Yaar, Sabko Chali Ye Leke
Jeena Sikha Rahi Hai, Marna Sikha Rahi Hai

Gaadi Ka Naam, Na Kar Badnaam, Patari Pe Rakh Ke Sar Ko
Himmat Na Haar, Kar Intezaar, Aa Laut Jaaen Ghar Ko
Ye Raat Ja Rahi Hai, Vo Subah Aa Rahi Hai

Sun Ye Paigham, Ye Hai Sangraam, Jeevan Nahin Hai Sapna
Dariyaa Ko Faand, Parvat Ko Cheer, Kaam Hai Ye Uska Apna
Neenden Udaa Rahi Hai, Jaago Jagaa Rahi Hai

I Amsterdam

Day full of Pranks ....

This is height::
A Cool World: Enjoy a rosier future as a Virgle Pioneer.

The Adventure of Many Lifetimes
Virgle !!!!
http://www.google.com/virgle/index.html

The day of daylight savings go off

The Snow Walker

yippy... its fun !!! watchout this space for pics and article.

Here comes the pics... The whole morning till aftrenoon I was wondering in the snow like a child who saw the snow for the first time. And thats true... :))

http://picasaweb.google.com/manish.mmk/TheSnowWalkers

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A walk in snow ...

The ice flakes, when fall down on you, because they need some heat to melt down.

oooo Rang Barse ...... Holiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!!!!

Germany mr holi kaise manayi .....
Aise:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rm17BPGv

oooo Rang Barse ...... Holiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!!

why one doesnt want to help himself...

WHY WHY WHY ???

milega jald hi mil jayega.

Kuch kho gaya hai... dhund raha hoon. Bass ab ki baar ek baar mil jaye toh saare din badal dunga. Dekha jisne kabhi baarish ki parvah nahi ki woh aaj nal ke paani ke liye taras raha hai. hota hai hota hai. Ab ki baar khone naa dunga. Jald hi mausam bhi badal ne wala hai.

sochane samazhne ki seemaye samapt !!!

Sacchai yeh hai ki agar Peace of mind disturb ho jaye toh aadmi pagla jaata hai. :)
Aur sabse badi baat yeh hai ki jab yeh hadsa kisi 200 % optimistic personity ke sath ho toh kya hota hai yeh dekhna hai toh muzhe dekho. uske liye tumhe Hildesheim aana padega wobhi 31st October ke pehle.

Ab kya kare... Sab waise hi kiya jaise chaha tha, kisine jabardasti toh nahi ki... khud ki marzi se aaye hai, ab rone se kya fayda. Waise bhi acche sabak mil rahe hai. aata-dal ka bhav pata chal raha hai woh bhi euro me :). Ek tarah se dekho toh, accha hi hai... thik hai ek pal ke liye udasi, sunapan, akelapan, sannate ko dur rakh ke dekho toh tumhe mehsoos hoga ki tumne kya paaya hai. Apne des ki mitti ki, apna rehan sehan, khana, apne log sab ki kitni ahmiyat hoti hai...yeh pata chal gaya naa.
Ab yaha rehne hai toh khana banana padega, chahe rote rote hi sahi.

kya kare waapis bhi toh nahi ja sakte, kaun itni badi sharmindagi uthayega lekin yaha rehna hai toh khud ka khayal rakhna hi padega, are yaar mahine me 6-7 baar lunch-dinner skip karo toh chalega lekin agar sirf 6-7 baar hi pet bhar ke khana (whole thanks to get-togethers and friends here) mile toh ..yebhi koi zindagi hai.. paise kyu kama rahe ho agar khud ke liye do waqt ka khana bhi nahi bana sakte..
aise hi blog likhte likhte agar dinner skip karoge toh aage se yeh sab nahi chalega. are koi samzao yaar isko..yeh nahi sudharne wala.. gone case. leave it.

The breath in Hildesheim

It's the weekend get-together's that keep the hopes alive that I am still a social animal. In a foreign country it's the nicest thing to see all the teammates coming to enjoy the weekends at someones place. How otherwise one could imagine life at Hildesheim ??? The weather(Nov-Feb) takes away half of your energy and the loneliness and the killing silence makes you sick even if you are not ill.

Herzlich Willkommen Neujahr 2008

Alles gutes zum Neujahr...

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