clouds, rain and the soul

yesterday was again a day of rain both inside and outside.
There are very few days when clouds gather both in and out and starts pouring and on such a day feels like there exists a soul of world which listens to you. Is there any soul of world which listens to prayers or is it just a imagination of a writer. whatever it may be but one thing is for sure that when you believe in a power it helps you stand amidst situations, even hardships. But when you do not believe in any power...That's the real courage...you are alone
amidst a desert. Alone fighting the sand trying to bury you, the heat trying to burn you, the wind trying to penetrate you. only you can help yourself. The pain of a atheist is that he knows there exists nothing but still he wants to believe in somehing and he doesn't find anything because he has lost faith. How can he believe in things which he knows that they do not exist. Have you ever lived a moment as god. then only you can know what a atheist suffers from. This is not hypocrisy or exaggeration..This is a challenge. Have you ever tried to put yourself in place of god. You all say your god dwells everywhere then why not inside you. If you are a part of him you should know his pains. But there lies a distinction what we have made to ease our lives...we are a part of that power but still we are different from him we count ourselves in mortals.and carefuly part ourself from all worries what god might have suffered. I am not trying to be god here;I just want you to think rationally. But I love those who have who have faith in something, they are superior to all atheisths because They are doing exactly what they are supposed to do.