recipe to remember for L T ...

someone may ask wat did i had for Dinner...

Well I had prepared something very special tonight. the ingredients are so rare that you may not even get it for whole of your lifetime. you will keep searching keep waiting but you will rarely get the mix of all required ingredients for this recipe.

i turned on the burner of longingness and the heat of wait just came out...then i chopped my loneliness into fine pieces until when i realized its hurting my heart... the pan of solitary evening was hot by the time.. i put the chopped loneliness in it and added four full teaspoon of tears. and mixed it well. loneliness was boiling and i was steering it adding some more amount of salty tears. it became soft then came the moment of adding spices to it.

I was having all different spices for this recipe; the sweet,bitter,tangy memories of Near and far friends... this mix of this special spices is a very rare and important
ingredient, if you have it then only you can prepare such a recipe. i started adding the spices remembering the good times we shared, and also the tears we dropped before each other. The recipe was becoming tasty, the smell of chopped loneliness was now vanishing and it got a sweet scent. It takes really long to prepare this dish... for hours together i was steering the loneliness and adding more spice... but it was becoming difficult as loneliness started swelling. it become bigger and bigger in size. and then suddenly i fall down,.... needless to say without having anything.

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today is really a goofed up day... i forgot to take lunch box to office, had to come back and then also dint had proper food. bugs kept coming into software and new tasks simply piling up... by the evening i was really chocked up and feeling dizzy... came home alone as usual after shopping for some grocery items. I was really feeling very very bad and also vomiting sensation. slept for sometime in fact simply lying down on bed and then the thoughts came into mind.... now it happens rarely that i being left alone, thanks to my friends here in Hildesheim... but sometimes when i am alone then the thought process takes such unusual turns, and I cant lie to myself.. i must express what i felt. well it's life and we have to accept it !
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its 11:20 now...
After giving a way to glim feeling i felt like if i don't eat and lie on bed coughing like this, then i will be like this becoming more and more sensitive and will never rise up... I dunno how many nights i have spent like this after coming to this place. But today nooo enough for the day. I got ready and went to bus stop at 9:50 o'clock.. no wonder if the bus is only after 30 minutes.. came back and took the bicycle... went to India Haus and had Nice Dinner. No worries ..Cheeers.

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It's a sin to be Senstive

hmmmm... that's my biased opinion when I am left alone shadowed in my own thoughts. I am partly responsible for that because I chose to live alone. It's a new discovery... when one is left alone he becomes sensitive.
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suspectible to everything... and most to tears.

Ronaa chahe ro na paaye... dil kitna majboor hai

My dear friends I am badly missing you alll....

One day comes to everyones life, when they realize that life is all about sharing and caring with loved ones and with friends. Nothing else matters. Because life stands on these supports.