Paradise lost ...

Pathar dil insaan Pathar dil shamshan ...
Pathar ke jab hote dil ... kyu jeeta marta insaan.

Whats the fate if we are fighting against each other
everytime whenever the nation is struck with bomb blasts
I left paralysed and my mind numb.

Amresh Sawant who died in mumabai serial blasts was one such victim a friend of my friend. What on earth makes us go insane... money, politics, power... is it more valuable than life???

the modesty and the goodness

A new ruthless DAWN

recipe to remember for L T ...

someone may ask wat did i had for Dinner...

Well I had prepared something very special tonight. the ingredients are so rare that you may not even get it for whole of your lifetime. you will keep searching keep waiting but you will rarely get the mix of all required ingredients for this recipe.

i turned on the burner of longingness and the heat of wait just came out...then i chopped my loneliness into fine pieces until when i realized its hurting my heart... the pan of solitary evening was hot by the time.. i put the chopped loneliness in it and added four full teaspoon of tears. and mixed it well. loneliness was boiling and i was steering it adding some more amount of salty tears. it became soft then came the moment of adding spices to it.

I was having all different spices for this recipe; the sweet,bitter,tangy memories of Near and far friends... this mix of this special spices is a very rare and important
ingredient, if you have it then only you can prepare such a recipe. i started adding the spices remembering the good times we shared, and also the tears we dropped before each other. The recipe was becoming tasty, the smell of chopped loneliness was now vanishing and it got a sweet scent. It takes really long to prepare this dish... for hours together i was steering the loneliness and adding more spice... but it was becoming difficult as loneliness started swelling. it become bigger and bigger in size. and then suddenly i fall down,.... needless to say without having anything.

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today is really a goofed up day... i forgot to take lunch box to office, had to come back and then also dint had proper food. bugs kept coming into software and new tasks simply piling up... by the evening i was really chocked up and feeling dizzy... came home alone as usual after shopping for some grocery items. I was really feeling very very bad and also vomiting sensation. slept for sometime in fact simply lying down on bed and then the thoughts came into mind.... now it happens rarely that i being left alone, thanks to my friends here in Hildesheim... but sometimes when i am alone then the thought process takes such unusual turns, and I cant lie to myself.. i must express what i felt. well it's life and we have to accept it !
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its 11:20 now...
After giving a way to glim feeling i felt like if i don't eat and lie on bed coughing like this, then i will be like this becoming more and more sensitive and will never rise up... I dunno how many nights i have spent like this after coming to this place. But today nooo enough for the day. I got ready and went to bus stop at 9:50 o'clock.. no wonder if the bus is only after 30 minutes.. came back and took the bicycle... went to India Haus and had Nice Dinner. No worries ..Cheeers.

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It's a sin to be Senstive

hmmmm... that's my biased opinion when I am left alone shadowed in my own thoughts. I am partly responsible for that because I chose to live alone. It's a new discovery... when one is left alone he becomes sensitive.
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suspectible to everything... and most to tears.

Ronaa chahe ro na paaye... dil kitna majboor hai

My dear friends I am badly missing you alll....

One day comes to everyones life, when they realize that life is all about sharing and caring with loved ones and with friends. Nothing else matters. Because life stands on these supports.

Gaadi bula rahi hai

Be it hotel california.... or Gaadi bula rahi hai...
The Same meaning... the sheer quality of expressing the Truth.



Enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Evey Moment Of It !!!



Gaadi Bulaa Rahi Hai, Seeti Bajaa Rahi Hai
Chalna Hi Zindagi Hai, Chalti Hi Ja Rahi Hai

Dekho Vo Rail, Bachchon Ka Khel, Seekho Sabak Jawaanon
Sar Pe Hai Bojh, Seene Mein Aag, Lab Par Dhuaan Hai Jaano
Phir Bhi Ye Ja Rahi Hai, Nagmein Suna Rahi Hai

Aage Toofan, Peechhe Barsaat, Oopar Gagan Mein Bijli
Soche Na Baat, Din Ho Ke Raat, Signal Hua Ke Nikli
Dekho Vo Aa Rahi Hai, Dekho Vo Ja Rahi Hai

Aate Hain Log, Jaate Hain Log, Paani Mein Jaise Rele
Jaane Ke Baad, Aate Hain Yaad, Guzre Hue Vo Mele
Yaadein Bana Rahi Hai, Yaaden Mita Rahi Hai

Gaadi Ko Dekh, Kaisi Hai Nek, Achchha Bura Na Dekhe
Sab Hain Savaar, Dushman Ke Yaar, Sabko Chali Ye Leke
Jeena Sikha Rahi Hai, Marna Sikha Rahi Hai

Gaadi Ka Naam, Na Kar Badnaam, Patari Pe Rakh Ke Sar Ko
Himmat Na Haar, Kar Intezaar, Aa Laut Jaaen Ghar Ko
Ye Raat Ja Rahi Hai, Vo Subah Aa Rahi Hai

Sun Ye Paigham, Ye Hai Sangraam, Jeevan Nahin Hai Sapna
Dariyaa Ko Faand, Parvat Ko Cheer, Kaam Hai Ye Uska Apna
Neenden Udaa Rahi Hai, Jaago Jagaa Rahi Hai

I Amsterdam

Day full of Pranks ....

This is height::
A Cool World: Enjoy a rosier future as a Virgle Pioneer.

The Adventure of Many Lifetimes
Virgle !!!!
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The day of daylight savings go off

The Snow Walker

yippy... its fun !!! watchout this space for pics and article.

Here comes the pics... The whole morning till aftrenoon I was wondering in the snow like a child who saw the snow for the first time. And thats true... :))

http://picasaweb.google.com/manish.mmk/TheSnowWalkers

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A walk in snow ...

The ice flakes, when fall down on you, because they need some heat to melt down.

oooo Rang Barse ...... Holiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!!!!

Germany mr holi kaise manayi .....
Aise:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rm17BPGv

oooo Rang Barse ...... Holiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!!!

why one doesnt want to help himself...

WHY WHY WHY ???

milega jald hi mil jayega.

Kuch kho gaya hai... dhund raha hoon. Bass ab ki baar ek baar mil jaye toh saare din badal dunga. Dekha jisne kabhi baarish ki parvah nahi ki woh aaj nal ke paani ke liye taras raha hai. hota hai hota hai. Ab ki baar khone naa dunga. Jald hi mausam bhi badal ne wala hai.

sochane samazhne ki seemaye samapt !!!

Sacchai yeh hai ki agar Peace of mind disturb ho jaye toh aadmi pagla jaata hai. :)
Aur sabse badi baat yeh hai ki jab yeh hadsa kisi 200 % optimistic personity ke sath ho toh kya hota hai yeh dekhna hai toh muzhe dekho. uske liye tumhe Hildesheim aana padega wobhi 31st October ke pehle.

Ab kya kare... Sab waise hi kiya jaise chaha tha, kisine jabardasti toh nahi ki... khud ki marzi se aaye hai, ab rone se kya fayda. Waise bhi acche sabak mil rahe hai. aata-dal ka bhav pata chal raha hai woh bhi euro me :). Ek tarah se dekho toh, accha hi hai... thik hai ek pal ke liye udasi, sunapan, akelapan, sannate ko dur rakh ke dekho toh tumhe mehsoos hoga ki tumne kya paaya hai. Apne des ki mitti ki, apna rehan sehan, khana, apne log sab ki kitni ahmiyat hoti hai...yeh pata chal gaya naa.
Ab yaha rehne hai toh khana banana padega, chahe rote rote hi sahi.

kya kare waapis bhi toh nahi ja sakte, kaun itni badi sharmindagi uthayega lekin yaha rehna hai toh khud ka khayal rakhna hi padega, are yaar mahine me 6-7 baar lunch-dinner skip karo toh chalega lekin agar sirf 6-7 baar hi pet bhar ke khana (whole thanks to get-togethers and friends here) mile toh ..yebhi koi zindagi hai.. paise kyu kama rahe ho agar khud ke liye do waqt ka khana bhi nahi bana sakte..
aise hi blog likhte likhte agar dinner skip karoge toh aage se yeh sab nahi chalega. are koi samzao yaar isko..yeh nahi sudharne wala.. gone case. leave it.

The breath in Hildesheim

It's the weekend get-together's that keep the hopes alive that I am still a social animal. In a foreign country it's the nicest thing to see all the teammates coming to enjoy the weekends at someones place. How otherwise one could imagine life at Hildesheim ??? The weather(Nov-Feb) takes away half of your energy and the loneliness and the killing silence makes you sick even if you are not ill.

Herzlich Willkommen Neujahr 2008

Alles gutes zum Neujahr...

Ich mochte ein haus kaufen am April und ...

Ek Lamha

Joh wajah hai mere wajood ki.
Jeena hai uss Ek Pal ke liye...

Jo maayne dega ess zindagi ko.
main mohtaj hai uss Ek Pal ke liye...

Jeena hai barso kayi saal kayi mahine kayi din.
lekin zindagi ban gayi hai taalash uss Ek Pal ke liye...

Kya socha tha aur kya mila aur kya paana abhi baaki hai.
ye saare bahi khate sambhal rakhe hai uss Ek Pal ke liye...

Ek saza mili hai maut ko ye jindagi jeene ki.
kya anjaam paate paate usse milegi raahat Ek Pal ke liye...

woh lamha jo ban gaya hai maksad jeene ka.
kya takqdeer mila sakegi unko Ek Pal ke liye...

ye kaagaj ke dher yeh syahi ki boonde.
betaab hai likhne daastaan uss Ek Pal ke liye...


bas likhne ki kuch khawhish si nahi thi.
lekin jab jikr kiya jindagi ne toh haath chal pade uss Ek Pal ke liye...



---Authentic MMK

Ye duniya agar mil bhi jaaye toh kya hai...